hello gorgeous! i love you so much.. i think that our friendship is soo flippin amazing! You dont compare to any one else in my world. Im sry i told niki, i know that was against your trust, but she was like a dead puppy. So just know that you can trust me and you can love me! Im so glad that you are here for me, and that i can be here for you. thank you for telling me the josh thing, and i am also really sorry for not acting first off like it was a big deal to you.. To you its your world.. Im sorry im dumb and dont have the gift of innocence and ability to comprehend what loosing that feels like..I know that it means so much to you and rightly so.. But dont get upset about the drama and stuff that goes along with it.. it will past. there will be new stuff really soon, other things for dramatic freshies to focus on.BUt yea your mom just came in here, and it was weird and i dont think your mom trusts me. well i know she doesnt.. GEEEZZ emily i hope im not a bad influence on you.. really i never mean to influence in that way, only to influence people to be free in their opinions and know theirselves. But yea i know we will be friends for ever and dont ever feel like you cant open up to me, or you cant be emotional, because thats only one of the things i love about you!! SO im gonna go now.. you can read it now. way to restrain the premature reading.. love ya!!!